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Does It Bother You That I'm Me

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Kakashi's leg shook, as he sat on one of the many park benches surrounding the giant stone fountain, which looked like it hasn't been used in years. It was still a beautiful sight, nontheless. It was also a beautiful day out, which Kakashi wasn't too happy about. He'd rather have it be grey and dreary out. Actually he'd rather have it be as dark as the middle of the night. It would calm his nerves. Today was very important. Today was the day he had been looking forward to and dreading at the same time. He was finally going to meet the person he has been talking to online for six months now. This wasn't just a friendly online friend he spoke to once in a while. No, this was on a completely different level. He was finally going to meet his 'cyber boyfriend'? And potentially his soon to be 'official boyfriend.' Not that he didn't think they were official because they just spoke online, but it would verify everything a bit more now. Hoepfully everything was going to work out. The only problem was that the person he was talking to online was sixteen years old. Kakashi was 29 years old. What made it even worse was that Kakashi had told him he was nineteen.

Kakashi rolled his eyes at his ridiculous lie. Nineteen? Really? He didn't look nineteen. He didn't act nineteen. He didn't speak like an nineteen year old. He would not be able to carry on this lie. He felt horrible for lying about his age after a couple of weeks. The boy's name was Sasuke. It really didn't take long at all for the two to really hit it off. They spoke for three weeks before Sasuke told him he 'kind of liked him just a little bit'. Kakashi couldn't help but let his inflated ego get in the way. Sasuke always said nice things about him. He said that Kakashi was nice, sweet, smart, clever, hilarious and even sexy. People usually referred to him as strange, lazy, perverted and freaky. It was nice to get a compliment now and then.

Buzz Buzz

He grabbed his phone out of his pocket and his heart sped up whne he saw Sasuke<3 on the caller ID. I just got to the park.

Where r u?-Sasuke
I'll be on a bench right by a fountain in the mid of park.-Kakashi
Im excited :) C you soon.<3- Sasuke

It took a minute before he saw a head of raven hair approaching. His nerves were going wild. Should he stand up? Should he smile? Should he wave? Should he run up and hug him? Maybe kiss him? He wanted to do all of the above. He watched the boy look around for a minute, before landing his eyes on him. Kakashi stood up and slipped his hands in his coat pocket. He watched the teen's face flash confusion and curiosity. He was waiting for a smile, which didn't seem to be appearing. Should he approach him? Maybe he's confused. No. There's no one else around. He could sense he was being examined and critiqued. It made him uneasy and self conscious. So, he did the last thing he wanted to be doing right now; he began to walk away, rejection weighing heavy on his heart.

He heard footsteps behind him, but he didn't stop walking. "Wait." He heard the teen say, before feeling a tug on his arm. He turned around and  looked into dark grey eyes. "You're my...I'm...Are you...uhh Kakashi?"

"Yes."

"This is weird. I never thought this would be happening. Why'd you leave?" He whispered

"I got nervous and self conscious." He laughed nervously, scratching the back of his head.

"Me too." Sasuke mumbled, looking away from Kakashi's masked face. He wanted to ask him about it and also about the scar on his left eye but he didn't want to be rude. He also didn't expect his boyfriend to look like that at all. A blush formed on his cheeks when he thought about more intimate things the two talked about online. This man had made him cum so many times and vice-versa. Oh god, the dirty things Sasuke had said back to the man went racing through his mind. He was so embarassed yet slightly turned on.

"Something wrong your face is turning red?"

"Wha-n-no. Nothing. Just hot."

"It's an afternoon in the middle of fall..."

"Shu-shut up. Did I ask for your two cents?" He huffed, crossing his arms and pouting.

Kakashi laughed at the boy's little tantrum. so cute. "How about we start off with a hug?" He suggested. The teen thought for a moment before nodding. His thin arms slowly reached out for the man, who took a step forward into Sasuke's embrace. Kakashi waited for the teen to wrap his arms around him, before doing the same. He couldn't stop the smile from forming on his face. This felt so right. They fit perfectly together.

"You give good hugs." He heard Sasuke mumble, into the material of his black peacoat. Kakashi chuckled and gripped the teen tighter. His hair smelled good. "It does?" Sasuke asked pulling back a bit.
Shit, he said that outloud? Kakashi bit his lip and nodded.

"Thank you you smell nice too."

Kakashi reluctantly pulled away and smiled at the teen, whose arm were still around him. They stared at eachother for a moment, before Sasuke stood on his tiptoes and leaned up to the older man's face. Kakashi stayed still and shut his right eye, the second he felt Sasuke's lips on his masked ones. It was quick. Too quick. But innocent enough. He was grateful that he hadn't tried to pull down his mask.

Everyone who ever kissed him always attempted it. "It's nice to finally meet you Kakashi."

"Jeez, why so formal Sasy"

"I told you not to call me that." He whined, placing his head on Kakashi's shoulder.

The older man placed his arm around the teen's waist and rubbed his cheek against Sasuke's hair. "HEY! You're messing up my hair."

"Forgive me Sasy-poo."

"Ugh you're such a dick. I figured you'd be nicer in person but I was wrong. Douche." He shoved the older man away and smoothed down his hair with one hand.

"Forgive me."

"whatever." He mumbled, taking a seat on the bench next to them. Kakashi sat down a couple of inches away . "You have horribkle posture. Sit up straight." His dark eyes examined the man...no his boyfriend, sitting next to him.

"So I've been told." He replied, straightening his back and crossing his legs. They sat in an uncomfortable silence for a couple of minutes, just staring around the park.

"B-baby?"

"Hmm?" He hummed, trying to stay as calm as possible, even though he wanted nothing more than to smile and squeeze the life out of the teen.

"What are you...well why are you...why is your face covered?"

"Does it bother you?"

"Well no. I was just wondering. It's kinda strange. No offense."

"It's fine. I'm used to people thinking that. It's one of the big reasons why I have a horrible love life. Freaks people out ya know."

"You better have no love life."

"Oh?"

"Yeah. You're my boyfriend so it better be nonexistant."

Boyfriend. He loved it coming from Sasuke's mouth. Sasuke still wanted him. He still thought of him as his boyfriend. "Of course. Who would wanna date me? Except for you? But that's only because you're crazy."

"Shut up. I'm not crazy. This is coming from the man who looks like he's ready to
rob abank. You're lucky you're hot."

"Hot? Stop trying to flatter me with your lies Sasuke."

"I'm not...psh see if I ever compliment you again then."

"Did you have an okay trip here?"

"Yeah. Just long and boring. Some creepy old man kept staring at me on the train."

"Hmm. I'm sorry. How's everything at home?"

"Okay I guess. My dad's still ignoring me as usual. My mom's in denial that she can have two gay sons. So she thinks that I'm just doing it for attention and to copy Itachi. Which is the dumbest thing I've ever heard. She thinks I'm an attention whore and a liar. And well Itachi is doing good. I met his boyfriend today. I'm not too sure if I like him that much. They should be somewhere around here. I told him I could come here alone, but he insisted on coming to keep an eye on me incase you turned out to be some crazy lunatic.

"Hm. You two look a lot alike." He said, pointing. Sasuke looked over and there was his brother and boyfriend sitting a few benches away. Itachi's eyes were narrowed slightly, examining Kakashi. Hidan, on the other hand couldn't care less what was going on with Sasuke and his boyfriend. He sat there with a cigarette dangling from his lips playing with Itachi's hair.

"Yeah. I hear that alot. But don't look at him. Pay attention to me." Sasuke demanded, a hint of jealousy evident in his voice. He grabbed Kakashi's chin and forced him to look his way.

"Don't be jealous. I only have eyes for you Sasuke."

"Hn. I'm not jealous." He was jealous, but just the tiniest bit.

"That's good. Are you hungry?" Kakashi stood up and held his hand out for Sasuke. The teen brushed his hand away. "I figured we could pick up some food and go to my place. We could eat, talk and watch a movie. I'd rather not spend my day in the cold with a bunch of strangers."

Sasuke nodded, buthis face fell when he caught a glimpse of his two unwanted guests. "But what about my brother and his boyfriend? They're not gonna let me go off to your house alone."

"Then I guess it'll be a double date. We'll just let them follow us and they'll get the hint." He replied with a smile. Sasuke nodded and locked his arms with the older man as they walked out of the park. Hew could hear two pairs of footsteps hot on their trail.
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"He's a big boy Itachi he can fucking take care of himself." Hidan mumbled, crossing his arms as they followed the couple. He could think of a million other things he'd rather be doing with Itachi than following around his little brother.

"You can leave if you're going to complain the whole time." Itachi shot back, pulling his coat tighter around his body. He pulled away slightly when he felt Hidan's arm find its way around his waist.  But it only encouraged the man to press Itachi tighter against him. "PLease don't smoke so much Hidan. See if I ever go near your mouth again." Itachi ripped the cigarette from his boyfriend's lips and threw it.

"Ahh come on Itachi....Ah what the fuck!? They're fucking getting away!" He screamed, practically throowing Itachi over his shoulder and jogging to catch up to the couple.

"P-put me down you idiot. Do you know how ridiculous this looks."

"Shut the hell up or I'll pants you in front of all these people. And this time I'll take underwear with me too." that was enough to shut the Uchiha up. Itachi lifted his head up and watched Sasuke practically drag his boyfriend away.

"He's trying to get rid of us. That little fucker."

"Such a dirty mouth Itachi. You better put it to good work later. You fuckin' owe me."

"Hn...Where'd they go?"

"SASUKE YOU LITTLE FUCK! GET YOUR FUCKING ASS BACK HERE BEFORE I CUT YOUR BOYFRIEND'S DICK OFF AND SHOVE IT DOWN YOUR THROAT!" Hidan yelled, making everyone turn around and stare in complete disgust. Itachi kicked the back of Hidan's leg and tried to get himself free. He was such an embarssment sometimes.
"You're unbelievable. Put me down right now. I don't know why I'm even with you. You always make a spectacle of yourself and of me."

"I'm sorry babe. Ah they went into the supermarket." He held on tightly to his boyfriend and sprinted across the street and into the market. "Alrgith let's go!" He yelled, dropping Itachi into a cart.

"H-hidan! What're you- I'm not five years old. Stop so I can get out."

"Shut the fuck up and enjoy it." He mumbled into Itachi's ear as he wheeled the cart around eventually catching up to the couple.
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"People have a staring problem." Sasuke mumbled, finally tearing himself away from Kakashi's arm. He rolled his eyes when he caught a glimpse of his brother sitting in a shopping cart with Hidan pushing him along. The nosey couple just stopped at the beginning of the aisle and watched. Sasuke did his best to ignore them and turned back to Kakashi. The man was practically examining nutritional facts on every box of cereal he picked up.

"Yes, people do stare a lot. They usually stare at my appearance, but I think today they have better reasons to look."

"What would that be?"

"Well, they've never seen me with such an attractive boy on my arm." He replied, giving Sasuke a quick smile before picking up another box. "Also, it might have something to do with those two following us."

"I'm sorry. They're being so embarassing and creepy." Sasuke replied, shooting Itachi and Hidan a dirty look. Hidan flipped him off and Itachi just narrowed his eyes at his brother.

"Its perfectly fine and quite endearing. Your brother must care about you a lot. It's nice. And I should be apologizing for dragging you food shopping on our first date."

"I don't mind. I like food....and uhm shopping..."

Kakashi chuckled and set two boxes of cereal into the cart. He made sure to pick a box that he noticed had piqued Sasuke's interest. The teen blushed and started pushing the cart. Kakashi took the opportunity to check the teen out as he slowly walked away, slouched over the shopping cart. Why was Sasuke with him? He could have anyone he wanted. He had noticed the stares the teen had gotten from both genders in such a short amount of time.

"Get your mind outta the gutter." Hidan whispered as he strolled by pushing his boyfriend along. He ran a hand through Itachi's hair in an attempt to calm him. "You're way too overprotective. He's sixteen. FUCK. By that age I couldn't even tell you how many guys I was fu-uhmm I was....I fucking love you."

"I really don't need to be taking advice from you about matters such as this. If it wasn't for you passinng your 'tests', I would not touch you with a fifty foot pole, a mask, gloves and biohazard suit."

"SHIT! Ah, that reminds me. Here you stay here and keep and eye on his boyfriend. I gotta go pick up a few things." Hidan ran away before Itachi could even respond back. He stood up and tried to step out of the cart, which only caused it to shake and threatened to go rolling away.

"Need help?" He heard a voice ask him. He turned his head and finally got a close up look at Sasuke's boyfriend. Eighteen my ass, he thought. He then actually took notice of the mask on his face. At first he had thought it was a scarf around his face, but it was infact a mask attached to a shirt. Interesting. "You can get out now." He said, holding onto the cart so it wouldn't move. Itachi nodded and stepped out of the cart with as much grace as he could. He nodded his head and followed Kakashi to the next aisle. Hm. What was up with his eye? Was he blind in it? It had clearly been injured. Is there no eyeball there? Sasuke sure picked an interesting one.
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Hidan eyes practically bulged out of his sockets when he found Sasuke where he least expected him. The teen was standing in front of condoms looking somewhat confused. The older man glanced around for any signs of Itachi, before rushing over to Sasuke. "Don't even fucking think about. Your brother would fucking kill me if I let you buy condoms. Personally I don't give a fuck who sticks their dick in you, but Itachi does, so I gotta act like I do too. Plus, you just met the dude today. He's not getting it in, especially with Mother Hen watching over you two."

Sasuke sighed and nodded his head. He was actually agreeing with this man? The world must be coming to an end soon. What was he thinking anyways? He was a virgin and he wasn't about to just have sex with Kakashi during their first meeting. He just assumed that maybe Kakashi would want to, but that still didn't mean Sasuke had to give in.

"Glad you see it my way. Now move over." He added in, lightly shoving Sasuke aside so he could grab three boxes along with some lubricant. The teen's eyes widened and his face twisted in disgust. Eww the mental image of Itachi and Hidan having sex. Eww his brother actually having sex with that....that....douche. "What're we doing today anyways? I didn't know you two were already playing house with eachother and going grocery shopping."

"Ugh are you always such a bag of douche!?"Sasuke screamed, shoving the man away. Hidan laughed loudly and smacked Sasuke's back, casuing the teen to stumble. "What drugs is my brother on, to agree to go out with you?"

"A drug called love my young friend. It may not seem that way on the outside, but we love eachother a shitload. Something you still need to learn."

"Love? Bullshit." Sasuke mumbled, grabbing the cart and making a quick getaway. If Hidan was wandering alone, that meant Itachi was with Kakashi. The last thing he needed was his brother scaring Kakashi away.
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"I hope you don't mind me and Hidan tagging along for your date today. What did you have in mind?"

"Oh no that's quite alright. It said it was supposed to storm today so I figured we'd go back to my house and I'd cook something and we'd all watch a movie. There's no need to risk getting caught in the rain."
Hm. He was surprised at how calm and bored the man looked. He wasn't affected at all or couldn't care less that he wouldn't be able to spend some 'alone time' with Sasuke. Maybe he wasn't a creepy internet rapist. MAYBE.

"So why do you like my little brother?"

"Hm...well I don't really feel like telling you why. Plus I'm not very good at answering questions when I'm under scrutiny by a protective older sibling. I mean I can't give you a list of reasons off the bat. It's just a feeling you have when you think about the other person. I'm sure you know what I mean. I'm Kakashi by the way since we were never formally introduced."

"Well I have every reason to be protective. He's still young, pure and easily influenced. I know you're not nineteen. And no I'm not going to tell Sasuke. But I do suggest you tell him soon. And I really hope your intentions aren't merely sexual because you won't get your hands near him if I have anything to do with it." Itachi warned, glaring at the taller man. His eyes softened immediatly when he saw Sasuke approaching them. Kakashi nodded and turned around. He tensed up when the teen threw his arms around him, despite the fact that Itachi was stanidn right behind them. Sasuke's hand grabbed the back of Kakashi's neck and leaned him down for a kiss. 'Missed you.' he whispered, before pressing his lips against Kakashi's cloth covered onees.

Kakashi was grateful for the mask covering the blush the formed on his cheeks. Sasuke missed him? He was only away for a couple of minutes. No one every said they missed him. Not since his father was alive. Well there had been a couple of boyfriends who have said it as well, but it was always accompanied with a need for sex. Sasuke kissed him once more before pulling away and looking at his brother.

"FUCK ITACHI! Look at this.They got a deal on these lunchables. I fucking love this crap."

They all turned to see Hidan walking towards them with a basket pilled with small yellow packages of children lunches. The condoms and lube resting on top made him look even more ridiculous. Sasuke swore he saw a smirk form on Itachi's lips. "Watch your mouth. There are children around here. And I didn't know you were stocking up for the apocalypse Hidan." He said, raising his eyebrow at the contents in the basket. Kakashi chuckled and Sasuke shook his head.

"Let's leave these two alone. Come with me. I need to get a few more things and then we can go." Kakashi whispered as he pushed the cart down the aisle. Sasuke nodded and looked back at the couple as they walked away.

"Sorry Tachi. You know I can't help it." He grabbed Itachi's chin and pulled him into a kiss. Sasuke eyes widened when he noticed his brother practically melt into the kiss. Oh god they were practically eating eachother's faces. Hidan grabbed Itachi's ass and pressed him up against his body.

"Sasuke come on." He heard Kakashi say. The teen shook his head and ran to catch up with his boyfriend. He'd never seen his brother act that way with someone. Especially a complete jerk like Hidan.

Itachi pushed his boyfriend away and shook his head, but not before pulling at Hidan's bottom lip with his teeth. The older man groaned and pulled away. He waved the box of condoms around, only to have it ripped out of his hand and flung down the aisle. "Tachi what the fuck!" He screeched as he ran to pick it up.
Title: Does It Bother You That I'm Me? [Chapter One]
Pairings: Kakasasu with added Hidaita
Rating: M
Warnings: Just language so far
Summary: Kakashi and Sasuke have been talking online. Kakashi hasn't been very truthful. His lies will slowly begin to unravel as well as his huge insecurities, which threaten to destroy their relationship.
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